Goal Weight #1 met!

YAAAAYYY! I am so happy I nearly cried telling my husband this morning that I had met my first goal weight. It is an amazing thing to accomplish and I am so proud of myself. But, I also know that I am only in the beginning stages of the battle and have a loooonnnnggg way to go before my ultimate goal of 180. (which will be re-evaluated once I get to that weight depending on my health and appearance at that weight, but it is a starting point ultimate goal- cause I have no idea what it will even look like!) But, am that much closer. And the battle doesn't seem so huge considering i have lost over ten pounds since the beginning of this month and close to 25 since I left Mankato. I'm tempted to try on an old pair of size 17/18 maurices jeans... but I think it might be a little soon for that. The end of next month I will try.

So, I am rewarding myself for this weight loss- not by eating something really bad for me (which is really flipping tempting-Hello Buffalo Wild Wings!), but by spending this fab. fall day with my little family. Tom and I are going to go to the Apple Orchard! Gonna pick out some pumpkins and some apples and enjoy the fall. Then, we are headed to City High's 70th b-day celebration so Tom can mingle with old teachers and hopefully maybe even talk one into letting him come volunteer for awhile so he can get those volunteer hours for his teaching program. I am so proud of that man- he has been plugging away on his thesis, doing well in his classes, working major overtime and bringing in major bank to help us pay down our dept and even make a hefty investment in savings. Life is good. I am blessed. What a beautiful day!!!

Intake: not determined for the day- but lunch will be fish and french fries and peas (fish and chips! yay!)

Weight: 237.8 :)

Next goal 230 pounds by Oct. 31st

lawn mowers kick my ass

So, today I decided to mow the front yard. Usually, I mow the back and my wonderful hubby mows the front for me. He always says how thick the grass is, and I banter with him and call him a pussy. I found one thing out today- he ain't lyin'! That grass is thick. We just have a push mower- no, not a gas powered one, one of the old school rotating blade ones. Trying to "go green" and all. Big mistake. Needless to say, it was a great workout. But, I had to quit on the other side of the driveway cause I couldn't even move the thing. Think it may be time to invest in a power one before next season. My back hurts!

Today's intake:
100 calorie snack- 100
turkey hotdog-100
salad w/ dressing- 80
mac n'cheese 380
tuna- 70
taco bell (two fresco thingies) 510
fiber one bar- 170
pretzels- 110

total= 1520 Not bad!

Wt. 241.8 (stayed the same- sort of bummed since this is the first day I haven't lost anything :( at least I didn't gain though)

So I saw a girl today at hyvee buy nothing but crystal light water mix ins, diet pills, and 7 packages of stimulant laxatives. WOW. Think she needs help, like now.

Got myself an appt. to see the lady doc next month. Woo HOo! (can you sense the sarcasm?) Hopefully she will tell me that I just need to lose 50 more pounds and take some super fertility drugs and we will be Tom and Ali plus 9 :) (minus the whole divorce part) But hopefully by that point I will be down a total of 15-20 pounds and maybe my body will start ovulating all by itself! Wouldn't that just be fantastic! I want a baby in my belly for christmas! :) It will happen when it is meant to, I just have to trust!

smell of wine and cheap perfume

Youtube glee and watch them perform awesome songs. Do it! Like, now!

Good day today. Long day at work though, so this girl is going to take the dogs out one last time and hit the hay.

food:
cereal with milk- 280
salad with sliced turkey and low fat dressing- 125
100 cal snack bag- 100
fruit snacks- 90
soup-120
small bag fritos- 160
more cereal with milk- 300
apple-free

total= 1175

NICE!

Weight- 241.8

Now that was depressing

The biggest loser premiered tonight. That show makes me cry more than flipping extreme makeover home edition. I've never actually watched a season of that show, but somehow it seemed fitting to watch others such as myself on their journey. If there is one thing I learned from the show- I need to exercise more! those people work out like crazy. Don't have to work till the afternoon tomorrow, so I am going to go for a walk in the morning and maybe even try to do the belly dancing dvd. :)

Today's intake

slimfast- 180
fiber one bar-140
progresso soup- 160
small bag cheetos- 160
2 slices chicken lasagna-800 (oops!)
1 bag fruit snacks- 90
3 muskateers mint- 70
grapes- free

total = 1600 calories. Not too shabby

Exercise: romp around the dog park with the pups for about half an hour

Wt. 243

Challenge

I am challenging myself to the 230's by Oct. 1st. I am going to do it!! I'm changing the way I am living, not just eating. Thinking about everything that goes into my mouth, avoiding emotional eating, and living better. Super busy in the garden today. The old neighbor lady came over and helped us get the whole garden cleared out. The veggies are done except for a couple of peppers that will be harvested this week. Next year we will expand the garden a bit and also have plans to lay some stones and make a firepit (bank account allowing, of course). The yard is now twice the size it once was due to the above mentioned clearing out. It looks fabulous. It will look even better once we get some grass growing back.

Bought a new scale last night. A fancy digital one :) It measures in decimals too, so even if I only lose .2 pounds I will see the difference! Yay!!

Today's intake thus far:
Slimfast
smart start breakfast cereal
lettuce with 1/2 cup left over manwich and 2 tbsp dressing
diet cherry pepsi and dt. mt. dew
2 20 oz h20
100 calorie packet of cheezits

Still need to eat some supper. Thinking it will be a salad cause I don't have anything else made.

Wt. 245

It's going down!

The scale, that is. What a good feeling to know that this is all paying off. Such a pleasant surprise when I weighed myself and saw that I have officially lost 5 pounds!!!

Yesterday was the Britney Spears concert. What a fabulous show! That girl can put on a circus, let me tell you. V. entertaining. Ate at an oyster bar and had oysters for the first time! FAB!

Yesterdays intake:
Slimfast

Lunch at the grandparents:
approx 1 tablespoon of each: potato salad, coleslaw, pea salad, baked beans
approx 1/2 cup bbq pork shredded
7 chips
apple
cut up cantelope
1 tbsp. salsa
piece of our 1 yr. anniversary wedding cake

Oysterbar:
Mich Ultra
Blue Oyster shot (vodka and spicy tomato juice in a shot glass with an oyster)
1/2 of calamari and shrimp appetizer
3 oysters on the half shell (2 cooked, one raw with caviar)

Strongbow cider (YUMMMM)

6 chicken mcnuggets
a few fried (about 10)
apple dippers
3 laffy taffy
diet coke

Wow! Looks like alot of food, but all were in small portions, so I am thinking I stayed below the 2000 calorie mark.

Plus, did TONS of walking around downtown before the concert since we got there 4 hours early.

Wt. 246 !!! Five pounds lost! Go me! :)

Not bad today:
Slimfast
Mac n Cheese (left out half the marg and made with skim milk) with tuna added (go omega 3!)
salad with light dressing
turkey hotdog with ketchup- no bun
one glass milk
healthy choice beef stroganoff meal
packet of fruitsnacks
fiber one bar
20 oz diet dr. pepper
40 oz water

Total cals: 1480

Exercise: belly dancing video for half an hour, walked from the inlaws home (about 3/4 mile or so)

Wt: 248

Looks like things might be working! Need to step up the exercise factor a bit, but really proud of myself for actually counting calories for the first time ever. I can't believe how many calories are in the foods I used to eat and how many I must have consumed in a day!!

Bit of a rough week this week, so it is good to know that this is working out for me. Found out I am going to be an aunt which is so great and I am so happy!!! But, at the same times it makes me wonder what is wrong with me? Why can't I just get pregnant??? I think my body is telling me that I need to get rid of all this excess ME before it can think about adding another human into the picture. So I am going to work my ass off. I am going to get healthy, and I am going to give my niece or nephew a little cousin to play with :) (God willing, that is) I also think Tom and I need to step up the intercourse factor a bit in the future if we really want anything to happen! TMI, I know... but it is so hard to want to get intimate with someone when you are so unhappy with your self image.

Britney concert this weekend! Bring on CIRCUS! Yay!! Hoping it will be a great time. Plus, a weekend all along with the Hubs in early celebration of our first anniversary! He is so wonderful, and I am so blessed to have such a fabulous husband and best friend! :)

This is gonna be one heck of a journey

This is gonna be tough. Counted calories today. 1650 total. More than I wanted to do, but not bad

Wt. 249

Intake:
smart start cereal with skim milk
healthy choice chicken with tomato sauce meal
salad with light dressing
Healthy choice garlic shrimp meal
1 packet fruit snacks
1 diet coke
Healthy choice chicken marsala steamer
100 calorie grasshopper cookie snack
1 glass milk

Wish I could have resisted that last healthy choice meal- but at 250 calories it wasn't bad. Overall, not a bad day. Pretty healthy, even.

I am tired and ready to zonk out.

Night!

day 4

I missed a day, and I apologize. It was a very fun labor day! My bestest girl Heidi and her fiance came down and we had a grillout. I was sick this morning and had to come home from work after puking. :( not good. Finally starting to feel better now after a long day of sleeping with an upset tummy.

Made a big decision today. Going to go and get certified to be a CNA. I'm really excited about it. The program will take two months. After that I just need to take the test and then I am good to go! Gonna give it a try for awhile to see what I think of the nursing world, then decide what I want to do with myself. I am just not in the going back to school mode, and really am not financially ready to deal with more student loans right now. We need to get Tom done, get him finished up with school, and get me some higher income coming in without adding to our debt. My classes start in October! So, I will have to drop one of my classes at kirkwood. But, I am going to keep going to my other one.

Back to the weight loss- the whole purpose of this blog. Today went well. Mostly just because I felt like crap for most of the day.

fiber one oat and caramel bar
packet of fruit snacks

then puked those up instantly following eating them! So, that doesn't really count :)

salad with low fat french and ranch
pasta salad with light miracle whip, onions, carrots, and tuna
small serving of pasta with walnut sauce
2.5 slices of baguette
1 special k bar
2 small bowls pasta salad
1 package hundred calorie cookie snack
3 glasses water
1 can pepsi max

weight 250. (at the end of the day, normally I weigh in the morning but forgot)

Day 2

A wee bit intoxicated...

but here it is for today

1 cappacino slim fast

3 half pieces of wedding cake sample for heidi's cake

1 packet fruit snacks

beers- 6

crack pipe shots - 1

irish car bomb- 1

woodchuck cider- 1

6 chicken wings

2 squares pizza.

not bad 'cept all the booze.

weight- 248

Let the weight loss begin!

It's time to get serious folks. I am beyond motivated and going to do this! So, from now on this Blog will be about my journey to 180 lbs. I think this is an attainable goal. And, since I don't know what I will even look like at 180, we'll see if that is my ultimate goal or if I want to lose a bit more.

Being fat is messing up my body. I get winded, I get gassy and uncomfortable and heartburny from all the crappy food I eat. I don't ovulate normally, if at all. That's the real kicker. Tom and I want to start having little ones sometime soon, but my body can't even ovulate normally. I will go months without so much as a period. Sorry if this is too much information, but I never knew that excess weight could mess up your system so much! I've done alot of research lately on fertility and obesity, and the results are not good. I need to go to the doc for sure to see what is going on, but I have a good idea he/she is going to tell me that I have polycystic ovarian syndrom. I don't want to self diagnose, but I have many of the symptoms- abnormal periods/no periods, some sprouting facial hair (not bad, but a few dark hairs here and there seem to be popping up) darkened areas of skin in certain places, and hair loss. I noticed my hair was getting thinner in the front, and had no idea why. It also can have things to do with your insulin, which would explain why sometimes I feel like my blood sugar is off almost to the point of passing out. NOT GOOD people!

So, I am getting serious. I'm not going to let my life choices affect my health. This is going to be my accountability blog. I am going to be journaling everything I eat. EVERYTHING. No cheating. And I am going to share my weight with the world. Because you all know I am fat, and it is time to be accountable for the numbers. I will also be tracking my exercise. So here we go with day one...

Day 1

Low fat PB granola bar
Banana
Healthy choice pot roast meal
100 calorie snack bag of cookies (x2)
one package fruit snacks
bowl of salad with low fat french and ranch dressing with two crackers
2 glasses of milk
2 pieces of jacks thin crust Bacon Cheeseburger pizza
1 20 oz bottle of game fuel mt. dew
1 can diet mt. dew (x2)
3 20 oz bottles of water

Weight:
251 pounds

Exercise: 4+ hours of cleaning, laundry, etc. (boy, is that a workout!)


There we go... off to the races!