Back at the beginning.

I gained it back. Like I always do. It is so sad and so disappointing. It is time to take control. I want to stop being an emotional eater/drinker/smoker and start taking accountability for my own actions. I want to have children and be healthy for them. So today I went to HyVee and got a nice selection of very healthy foods. I want to feel good. Be proud of myself for once. I need to find the source deep inside me to lose this weight. I want to live to be old! To experience life- the good, the bad, and everything in between. It is time.