to food.
I am. That is what makes weight loss so hard. It is an addiction. Like cigarettes or alcoholism. I quit smoking, but I've yet to really quit over eating. It is so hard! You need food to live. It isn't like cigarettes that you can give up on and don't need to use it ever again. But the feeling I get when I want a particular something to eat is the same knaw at you feeling that I would get when I needed a nicotine fix. I need to take control of my appetite. Own it, not let it own me. The photo above is of me about 4 years ago. I thought I was so fat then, but now it is my first goal. About 30 pounds away from where I am now. I've lost right near 15 since when I first moved to Iowa... but I don't feel any smaller. I think it is because I am so big. So, I'm going to work really hard. I'm going to get healthy.
No more embarassment because of the way I look. Pride, love for myself. That is what I want. It will be a long time coming, but I know I can do it. Having this house is great motivation. There are so many things to be done. Gardening, mowing, cleaning... tons of things to do. I am staying to busy.... that is when I don't even have time to think about food. As soon as I sit down and relax the feeling naws at me again. Eats away at me. I know I'm not hungry. I'm just bored and want something to do. I can't be happy just sitting, I need to be putting something in my mouth. How do I get over that? How do I find the strength. These are the questions that are yet to be answered.
You are a strong and sometimes stubborn person. If you want something you go for it. I know you can do this. You can beat the food addiction, it will be a struggle, but you can over come it. You keep busy outside, you just need something to do inside, something to keep your hands busy. Maybe work on the potholders you were making. Get a cheap sewing machine and make things for your home. Window treatments, a quilt, pillows, whatever it takes. You were going swimming after work, do that, and garden and go to bed early so you don't have idle time. I would like to see you make your goal weight. Holidays are extra tough and you just had your first bbq with lots of food. Don't give up. I know it is tough, I have put some weight back on too and know I need to take it off. We can help support each other. Like over eaters annonamous, call if you want to eat. Reach out to your family and friends for help.
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You look so good in that picture, just beautiful! You will be so proud of yourself to make it to your first goal. You go girl!!
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SCRAPBOOKING!!! Entertains me for HOURS :)
ReplyDelete(In regards to doing something that keeps your hands busy ... I am like this too. It's creative, but in kind of a fluffy, don't have to think too much kind of way)
Hon, once you get the first 10 lbs. off you will feel so great that it will just keep melting off of you. My advice is to keep as little junk food in the house as possible... that's what always trips me up. Even if I'm not hungry, if there's something enticing hanging out in the snack cupboard it will soon be in my belly! You are not alone!